I’ve never been in love before. At least not in the romantic sense. I don’t even know what a crush feels like. With that being said, how am I supposed to know what love feels like? I feel as if I’m waiting for some sort of explosion of emotions that will fundamentally change me forever.
I don’t think thats exactly what love is.
When I think about the love I have felt, it’s never an overwhelming burst of feelings. It’s overwhelming in a different way. Love makes me want to cry. Which sounds slightly neurotic possibly, but I promise it’s in a good way. I don’t know much about chakras but I’m pretty sure that heart one is very apparent. When I feel love I feel choked up, like the amount is genuinely too much for me to stomach.
To me, love is a flush of heat, a prickle in the eyes like I might cry happy tears. It’s a deep gratefulness that these people are in my life. I think real romance will be the same. It feels like the warmth and light of your favorite candle or sunlight coming through the window early in the morning.
I’ve been doing guided journaling on my dating and relationship goals and I do think it has helped me to better put into words what it is I’m looking for.
Since starting this series, I think I might have developed a tiny crush. That’s a totally new sensation and it does make me feel a bit crazy. I was listening to ‘A Long Walk’ by Jill Scott and suddenly more was on my mind than just the lyrics. I started to smile and it was definitely a “what the hell just happened?” moment but I’ve decided the feeling isn’t awful. I did have to reality check myself because I almost got a little jealous for no real reason so I’ll keep an eye on that though.